What was that?

Having been partly educated by a very mystical man, I tend to look for the Cartesian side of things… This is also because my hypersensitivity would exhaust me if I let it run its course…
My question concerns patches of “black powder” that I see moving around me… as well as bright spots, like little stars… And above all, something that made me drop my food tray in surprise…
A small luminous shape about 1.2 meters tall that I saw coming out of my bedroom, making a sharp turn, and then entering a wall.
I want to say that I am balanced and that I do not take any substances…
One night, in that room, my bed started to undulate, and since it wasn’t the first time and I was tired of being afraid, I shouted out loud that it was MY bed and that I WANTED to sleep peacefully... Ever since, nothing has happened...
Has anyone had such experiences? I’d like to know because this kind of thing often happens to me at certain times in my life.
And I don't want any...

Hello,

My first impression is that there is a duality in you... and it expresses itself! You believe it without meaning to.
These experiences are attempts to make contact, and you cut them short; however, they are clearly not hostile, as they do not persist. I think you should try to move forward and initiate a dialogue, perhaps with the assistance of a medium.
When you talk about a “period of your life,” what are you referring to?

Thanks, Tom, for your reply…
Stressful periods, fatigue, end of a cycle…
At twenty, I started seeing people with cancer, then the risks of strokes, and now the risks of dialysis…
But I nearly lost a student by ordering her mother to send her to the hospital immediately if she didn’t want to lose her... it saved her life, but it complicated my interpersonal relationships...
Another time, at a distance, I felt compelled to reveal a false diagnosis, which also saved that man's life.
But when I feel such things, I feel bad, sad, and I no longer feel like eating…
In short, I don't want this to happen to me anymore... to see these things...
I chose to talk about it here because it’s anonymous and because I don’t know what to do with it…
That’s what makes me doubt paid mediums too, because I know these states of revelation very well, and it makes me laugh to think that some people claim they can be in that state on demand or for 12 hours a day…
It’s so exhausting and depressing…
Thank you again…

I forgot to mention that I’ve moved since then…
In the end… I take the right to refuse to engage with these presences, just as I do with certain people in life, knowing that one must either commit fully or not attempt anything at all… out of respect…

If so… I’d be happy to exchange, even via DM…