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Hello! Here is the situation: I am in a relationship and have two children, but I have a lover who is one of my exes. My ex and I reconnected almost four years ago; we talk on the phone and have only met once, during which we made love. I have very strong feelings for my ex. Almost always, I dream about my ex; in my dreams, we are together and in love, but the man I am in a relationship with is always present, trying to separate us. As a result, my ex and I run away to avoid seeing him and to stay with my ex. Then I am asked if I want to stay with my ex, and I answer yes! Please help me understand my dreams.
Thank you